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07 April 2013 @ 11:13 pm
I have this sudden urge and deep desire to express myself through writing, and when I actually make the intent I can't seem to find inspiration.  It's actually such a drag.

It's also representational of how I"m feeling right now.  My heart is cold as ice.  I hate every bit of it, and I desire change.  But nothing I try to do remedies it.  Even the things I would listen to or participate in fall short.  It is as if I were frozen with apathy.  And the need that surrounds me is increasingly great, but I feel like I'm growing more and more wearing.  How am I supposed to help anyone?  And even then I remember that those whom God used were mostly broken , but at least He showed them what He wanted them to do next.  I feel so lost.  I feel like slowly God is removing each thing that I relied on as a way to get to Him...and now I'm on my own...and it's not so easy.  I hate it. And yet I don't doubt that He's allowed it for a reason.  Why is trusting Him so difficult?  But not trusting Him leads to great dissatisfaction and desperation.  I feel like I'm paralyzed...I need a Savior.  I have one;   but I'm seeking wholeness in things and people that are empty.  It's so disappointing.  I need You LORD. Please have mercy on me and draw me close to You...no one else but You.
10 April 2013 @ 11:04 pm

This was preached at a Pentecostal Men's conference. While it was for men I believe it is good for women as well. Very thought provoking and helpful insight into how to overcome spiritually in a world that is chasing after their own decay.

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

30 April 2013 @ 05:32 pm
I receive emails from a Christian legal non-profit known as the ACLJ (The American Center for Law and Justice).

They're working to help secure the freedom of a Pastor Saeed Abedini, who is currently imprisoned in Iran simply because he refuses to renounce his Christian faith. He is enduring regular beatings, suffering from internal bleeding, and he is being refused any medical treatment. His condition is worsening.

You can read the latest update on his situation here: http://aclj.org/iran/american-pastor-saeed-abedini-thrown-into-solitary-confinement-in-iran-health-deteriorating

Right now, the ACLJ is running a campaign to send letters of encouragement to Pastor Saeed, whose birthday is May 7th.

To send a letter of encouragement an/or sign the petition for his release, you can go here: http://savesaeed.org/

Please remember him in your prayers, and all the Christians around the world who are being persecuted for their beliefs.


28 June 2013 @ 04:44 pm

Over on the politicartoons website, enders_shadow started a debate about Genesis and the nature of God that has quite honestly put me at a total loss.  The original discussion can be found at http://politicartoons.livejournal.com/3742488.html

Basically, the conversation goes something like this: ES accuses God of lying to Adam and Eve about eating of the fruit of the tree of life.  After all, they lived many years after God aid they would surely die.  My response was Adam and Eve became mortal; before that they were promised eternal life.  ES pointed out that there is no such promise- and indeed I found no such promise in Genesis.

Was I wrong about that? Were Adam and Eve intended to be immortal before the incident with the tree and the serpent? If not, where the heck did I get that idea?  Just exactly what is the story of the expulsion from Eden supposed to illustrate?

20 November 2013 @ 10:48 am

Read Esther 5–10

    That night the king could not sleep; so he ordered the book of the chronicles, the record of his reign, to be brought in and read to him…."What honor and recognition has Mordecai received for this?" the king asked. Esther 6:1, 3
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    The book of Esther contains some similarities to the story of Joseph in Egypt. Esther and her guardian, Mordecai, were captives in Persia, and like Joseph, God’s providence brought them into favor with the King. Esther was crowned Queen, and Mordecai in the end, was second only to King Ahasuerus. He …was great among the Jews and well received by the multitude of his brethren, seeking the good of his people and speaking peace to all his countrymen. (10:3b NKJV)
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    Mordecai ‘just happened’ to hear about a conspiracy against King Ahasuerus in time to warn Esther, and the king ‘just happened’ to awaken in the middle of the night–calling for the record that Mordecai had saved his life–just in time to foil the conspiracy by Haman to annihilate the Jews. (Esther 6-7)
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    The truth is that nothing ‘just happens’ to God's people. If we truly believe this, we will live with the confidence that God works out everything according to His good plan. Lord, remind me when I forget, that I will never be sorry for trusting in You.
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    "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, "thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV
05 October 2013 @ 10:13 am

Read Psalm 1

     Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly… His delight is in the law of the LORD and in His law he meditates day and night. He shall be like a tree Planted by the rivers of water, that brings forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf also shall not wither; and whatever he does shall prosper. Psalm 1: 1a, 2-3 NKJV
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     God's Word never goes out of vogue for Christians. It is relevant for every stage of life, and is the source of life itself. 
    Believers who ask the Lord for wisdom with their children will find it, for he has promised, “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. (James 1:5-6 NKJV)
    Then when the children are grown, God's Word says that those parents will still bear fruit in old age and be fresh and flourishing. (Psalm 92:14 NKJV)
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      Lord, I want to meditate daily on Your Word so that I can sort out the many voices of advice that the world gives. Only by knowing the truth can I recognize error, and find that narrow way that leads to life. Help me to influence our children so that they too will "delight in the law of the Lord." and avoid the "counsel of the ungodly."
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     Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path. Psalm 119:105 NIV
23 August 2013 @ 11:50 am

Read Nehemiah 1–2; 4:1–15
    I answered them by saying, "The God of heaven will give us success."   Nehemiah 2:20a NIV
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    Nehemiah, a cupbearer for the King of Persia, received some alarming news from Judah: "Those who survived the exile and are back in the province are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire." (1:3)
     The king of Persia gave his permission for Nehemiah to go and help his people rebuild Jerusalem – but the enemies of the Jews were very much disturbed that someone had come to promote the welfare of the Israelites. (2:10)
    Not only was the work overwhelming, leaving the people exhausted, but three local officials set out to discourage the people with ridicule and intimidation. When that didn’t work, they threatened to fight against them. Nehemiah encouraged the people to "Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your brothers, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes." (4:14)
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    Lord, in our homes and churches, we need encouragement for some of these same issues ; maintaining motivation, overcoming fatigue and dealing with our spiritual enemy who says we cannot succeed. Help us to remember Nehemiah's words: "The joy of the LORD is your strength." (Nehemiah 8:10)
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    "Therefore I stationed some of the people behind the lowest points of the wall at the exposed places, posting them by families…."   Nehemiah 4:13 NIV
07 August 2013 @ 01:41 pm
    Therefore the LORD Almighty says this: "Because you have not listened to my words… This whole country will become a desolate wasteland, and these nations will serve the king of Babylon seventy years."   Jeremiah 25:8, 11 NIV
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    Josiah was a good king, who fought against idolatry, but the people continued to run after other gods. After Josiah's death, God brought a message through the prophet Jeremiah: “the LORD Almighty says this: "Because you have not listened to my words, I will summon all the peoples of the north and my servant Nebuchadnezzar king of Babylon," (25:8-9a)
    God was going to allow His people to be carried off to Babylon for seventy years, and after that they would return to the land. Jeremiah had no choice but to faithfully declare God's message–even though no one wanted to hear it. When it actually happened, just as God had said, there could be no doubt that this was the Word of the Lord.
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    Heavenly Father, Give us faith to trust Your Word even when we see our nation ignoring it. We need courage to share the Truth in our generation even when no one wants to hear it. Help our churches to be faithful in teaching the Bible and declaring the gospel with clarity. Raise up godly men to lead our country in truth and righteousness.
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    "I will bring them (back) from the land of the north… They will come with weeping; they will pray as I bring them back. I will lead them beside streams of water on a level path where they will not stumble."   Jeremiah 31:8-9 NIV
25 July 2013 @ 02:46 pm

Read Haggai 1

    Now this is what the LORD Almighty says: "Give careful thought to your ways. You have planted much, but have harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it." Haggai 1:5–6 NIV
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    It had been 15 years since the people of Judah had begun to rebuild the temple, but the work had ceased because they were too busy with their own affairs. The Lord, through the prophet Haggai said, "Is it a time for you yourselves to be living in your paneled houses, while this house remains a ruin?" (1:4)
    The people, no doubt, were struggling in a broken down economy trying to build up the infrastructure of their city. In the busyness of it all, their priorities had slipped.
    So the Lord said, "Consider your ways! Go up to the mountains and bring wood and build the temple, that I may take pleasure in it and be glorified…You looked for much, but indeed it came to little; and when you brought it home, I blew it away. Why?" says the LORD of hosts. "Because of My house that is in ruins, while every one of you runs to his own house." (1:7-9 NKJV)
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    Forgive us Lord when we become overly concerned with earning wages to furnish and maintain our houses. As necessary as those activities are, they are not as important as ministering in our families and churches. Give us a balance that brings glory to You and encouragement to other believers.
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    And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works, not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching. Hebrews 10:24–25 NKJV
12 July 2013 @ 09:36 am

Read Jonah 1–4

    But the LORD provided a great fish to swallow Jonah, and Jonah was inside the fish three days and three nights. Jonah 1:17 NIV
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    In this story, God commanded Jonah to do something no other Jewish prophet had been asked to do–to go to a pagan city to pronounce judgment. The city of Nineveh, Assyria, was founded by the infamous Nimrod who built the tower of Babel. Earlier prophets, Amos and Hosea, had prophesied that Assyria would carry Israel off into captivity, so it is understandable that Jonah would balk at being asked to preach to Israel's sworn enemy.

    But it seems that Jonah had no choice. God decided to offer mercy to a Gentile city and Jonah would be the messenger–willing or not. Thousands of years later, both Jews and Gentiles (non–Jews) are recipients of this same mercy and grace. God truly cares about people of every nation and tongue who will repent and believe on Him.
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    Lord, thank you that You loved me before I even knew about You. Give me a love for other people and forgive me for any hesitancy in sharing my faith. I am so glad that someone took the time to share the gospel message with me.
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    "Nineveh has more than a hundred and twenty thousand people who cannot tell their right hand from their left… Should I not be concerned about that great city?" Jonah 4:11 NIV